I handed my timing chip to the AS captain at mile 20 with a smile on my face. I knew finishing would be impossible and continuing to 50 would be improbable. I looked out on the scenic Superior (Sawtooth) Trail 100 course and wondered: what's happened to me?
I started the year by running the Frozen Gnome 50K and Sean O' Brien 50 milers as training runs for POT150 (which I DNF'ed at mile 100). I PR'ed in the marathon, and then things went downhill.
|Headed up Hope Pass at LT100|
After seeing a few doctors, including a sports ortho I have figured out that I have tendonosis in my gluteus minimus and medius muscles. It sucks.
I had planned to do three 100 milers this summer/fall - AC100, Superior Trail 100 and Bear 100. I was forced to DNS AC100 (which is one of my dream races) and scale back my plans for Superior to trying to get to the halfway point. Basically, when I get to about 15 or so miles it starts to hurt. Bad. To make matters worse, I haven't been able to train as much, and of course I still been eating as much, so I have gained weight. It's a spiral.
|Starting the Leadville International Beer Mile|
I was lucky to have attended Leadville Trail 100, crew Andy Kumeda to a finish and summit a couple of peaks. I didn't meet my Superior goal. I dropped at 20 miles and crewed my friends Tony Cesario and Mike Wolkowicz to their first finish. While doing so I had a little time on my hands to reflect, plan and philosophize.
I decided that I need to start acting like the kind of ultra runner I want to be. The problem is figuring out what that is. I know there's a few kinds of runners I won't ever be. The elite runner, the competitive runner and, let's face it, the fast runner.
|At the Mt. Elbert Summit|
I know there are a few runners I don't want to be: the selfish runner, the whining runner, the runner that can't handle hard races or the runner that makes excuses for themself.
I already have the cheeseburger runner down and the overweight runner down. In fact, I might be the patron saint of both types of runners. I know I am also the guy that helps everyone else. I love being that guy and being known for being that guy. But somehow it isn't enough.
|Dovi and Me at the Krispy Kreme Challenege|
After the frozen gnome a group of us went out for dinner. I recall hearing my friend Blair Piotrowski whisper something to his son at the table. It was something like: "See that guy over there....he might not look like much, but he can do really hard things." I think that's EXACTLY the runner I want to be again. To do that I have to get healthy and go back on my eating plan. It's going to suck and take some time. It might mean forgetting about some near term goals and looking to some long term ones. I have to do PT. I might end up stretching or having a foam roller applied to me. Things may change. I may change.
One thing's for sure. I'm not going to let it get me down and I'm not going to give up. This is all just part of the process.
Next up: Bear 100. 9/27/14. My plan: run until someone tells me I can no longer proceed.